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Location: Somerset, UK
Joined: Sep 2005
Posts: 5,479
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bad to worse
found out yesterday that i have to go for a brain scan as due to trauma when younger it may have caused damage and/or be causing a tumour to form.
am still backwards and forwards trying to get the ptsd sorted out in three weekly installments but have "homeowrk" to do which is very mentally tiring.
felix has had a huge reaction to his vaccine and his face got so swollen its broken the skin so its sore and itchy and will likely scar - i dont like my boy being in pain, he certainly wont be getting another vaccine again.
ontop of that and everything else thats gone on at home recently i just feel as though im about to crack under the pressure. have been like a zombie the last couple of days, had my personal development review this morning with my old manager - really cheered me up as said id done fantastic in the 6 months i've been here, took my stats etc. back to my current manager to be told the area in which id scored 8 couldnt be right as "nobody gets that" and that if i do the same in my next review i'll have to go on a plan
![Confused](images/smilies/icon_confused.gif)
emailed my old manager who said she's talking rubbish and will have a word, so thats probably going to cause a load of aggro and atmosphere... it had made me feel so much better but then after she'd said that felt like i'd been knocked back even further
feel like i need a really good cry but the tears wont come