I'll miss you my baby girl

Smudge went to the bridge this afternoon.

She was severely diabetic and all of her other blood results were also high. The vet reckoned there was also problems with her stomach as it felt 'rubbery'.

They explained that my free spirited outdoorsy cat would have to become an indoor cat and have twice daily injections, be fed regular at the same time and all aspects of her lifestyle would have to be routine. That wasn't Smudge, she wouldn't have liked it all and it would've all been for me. She's spent 12 years with a cat flap in the door and loved to be out climbing trees.

I made the heartbreaking decision to send her to the bridge and held her head in my hand, stroking her while she purred all the way to the end.

She made it so easy for me because she put up no resistance and purred and cuddled me.

None of us really expected her to come home and I gave her a wet food pouch as a treat before we left.

We wrapped her in her favourite throw (my bedding - but she loved it) and I brought her home. I laid her out in the bathroom where she'd been laid the last few days so that Smitch (her litter sister) could see she was gone and then Dad buried her in the garden.

I can't believe she's gone and won't be laid next to my pillow tonight but I know it was the kindest thing for her.

She was my first animal friend - she was my baby, my Smudge... I'll miss her so much but I know it was the kindest thing to do.

Run free at the bridge, Smudge and don't forget me xx

so sorry to hear this, hugs x

so sorry to hear this Lottie

run free little smudge xx

So sorry xx

So sorry

Sleep tight smudge x

So sorry to hear this. big hugs.
Run free smudge.
xx

Oh Lottie your love for her shines through in that post. I am so sorry. Huge hugs Lottie xxxxxxxx

Thank you guys.

I'll miss her but I know I did the right thing for her, however hard - I see what people mean now when they say 'you know when the time comes' - I honestly thought I'd feel some guilt but all I feel is relief for her and sorrow for me.

I'll really, really miss her - she was such a quirky little cat, found dumped in a river she always trusted humans implicitly and didn't have a nasty bone in her body.

Oh Lottie i'm so sorry to hear this. x

So sorry to hear this Lottie xx