I can't find any photos on my photobucket, it's made me realise how many years it's been since I said goodbye to the pocket rocket.
Polly was "my" first dog, I think i was about 9 or 10, maybe 11 actually I really don't remember it seems so long ago, my parents had a rather messy divorce at the time. We'd always had....a lot of dogs, mum rescued her ex guard dog dobes that came with their problems and dad had his staffords which he lightly showed, occasionally bred and usually over indulged. By this point the dobes had all gone to the dog kennel in the sky, and those of the staffords that remained went with my dad-they were his dogs after all, barring one who remained but (as i discovered some years later), pined for my father so much that he took him in the end too.
A trip to the rescue centre to solve two problems, 1)being dogless-alien concept in my family and 2) to give me something to, at the time, keep my mind off what was going on resulted in a rather strange looking creature being selected.
She was a jack russell, but tiny-a real pocket rocket, with huge batty ears (I always wondered if there was some Pap there), who had been rescued with quite a few others from a filthy run down farm where they'd been kept in small rabbit hutch looking kennels. She'd had no socialisation, nor training and really...looking back, was a horrible creature BUT it was love at first sight and from the moment we met that was it. Inseperable.
She was from a working background too, apparently-although I don't believe anything the RSPCA say (you'll read why later) and an understanding of this was key. Even better i had a lot of family with working terriers, so it wasn't alien territory of what to expect.
We had a fiercely tight bond and she would of entirely laid down her life for me at any given point, wherever i was she was too-always two steps behind. Nobody could come too close without getting a raised lip as she was fiercely protective, really as I said-looking back all these years later i realise what a nightmare she must of been for everyone around me, but to me she was perfect.
She had many problems though-fear biting of anyone who came too close to me
-separation anxiety
-didn't like people in dark blue clothing
-couldn't be touched if in her bed
-hated small children
-hated german shepherds
-hated blonde women (a VERY difficult issue!)
-hated getting into the car but then once was in would guard it as if it was some for of precious gold.
-generally saw anyone who wasn't me as fair game!
And she HATED being alone though, and in those days as soon as I was off to school it would be her one dog mission to escape. No bigger than a cat she somehow could scale seven foot fences, or (unsurpisingly) dig under ridiculously quick and off she would go to the back of our cul-de-sac, slip through the little five bar fence and out into the woods that bordered it for hours of debauchery and bloodlust to usually be waiting on the doorstep, filthy and covered in rabbits blood at around 3 oclock. Again, looking back-it's not something I would ever allow now but at the time it was fairly routine! Terrible isn't it!
She was as sharp as a tack and the most loyal dog I have ever encountered, she is sited by all of my family and friends as the same too as I have never known such a bond between man and dog. My grandfather always used to say that she and I just knew that at the time we first met we both needed saving, and that neither one forgot.
When we adopted her from the local RSPCA we were told she was no older than 2 and a half, probably younger. You can imagine seven and a half years later our surprise when she started having small scale strokes, problems with incontinance, and a series of heart problems that would leave her incredibly weak and tired. Our vet had never really looked much into her age as just accepted she was a rescue of undetermined origins, but when these health scares began he revealed that the dog we thought to be around eight and a half/nine was probably more like approaching fifteen. Her teeth and other things signified she was a real old girl, and thinking back she went quite grey not long after having her. The vet, and we, assume the RSPCA estimated she was still so young and "growing" as they had told us due to how tiny she was-but that was just her, a real pocket rocket.
When her time came however we were all a tad selfish, she'd been back and forth to the vets for about eight months and everytime the problems seem to multiply, but nobody wanted to accept the warning signs. For days before she was PTS I knew it was way overdue, she never stirred from these horribly deep sleep with her head continuously pressed right against me. It accumulated with a rather large stroke/seizure of which I could tell it had knocked her for six when she came round. She wouldn't have lasted, we called the vet who came to do a home visit-he confirmed that it was most definitely time and without any intervention she'd get another day or so at most. Her heart was failing, finally edged on by this seizure/stroke episode, she was ready.
He hadn't expected it was quite this bad and, foolishly as he admitted, hadn't come prepared. She was....as I said, incredibly sharp and good with her teeth and we all knew she wouldn't go quietly so he adminstered a sedative at home and when she was ready we took her on to the vets. It was probably the best way, she was calm and quite content just asleep on my lap.
I still remember it all so clearly, 27th of July 2006-about two oclock, it was a thursday and it was incredibly sunny outside. She went very very peacefully and left such a big hole. So much so that no dog has ever come close to her place in my heart, never will. I still have some of her ashes, i scattered some, in an antique little urn on the sill in my bedroom.
She is the only pet, living or dead, that has the honour of having a rather nice black and white photo in a rather expensive frame that was bought for the photo by a good friend of mine some years ago amongst all the family photos on the sideboard in the living room. And I think she was one of the few dogs in this world that all those years ago when I wrote it on a certain social networking sight got something in the region of 150 people commenting their condolences to what, for such a considerably tiny dog, a huge character had gone.
She was a dog in a million.
I've gone to rescue centres numerous times since, and always been refused on the basis of either hours dog would be alone (despite having other content pets) or having a male unneutered.
I probably will never end up with another rescue.
I probably would never have another russell, her boots are too big to fill-and when given a jack pup by a farrier friend of mine she was nothing like the old girl (i had to return her at about a year old due to terrible in house bitch fighting.)
There are dogs in this world that we are truly lucky to have, Polly was one of them.