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Location: Ayrshire, Scotland
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Originally Posted by
sarah8
I am truly sorry for your loss, I too lost my baby on Monday and she was only three. It is heartbreaking to lose them so young in their prime. I felt robbed of a long life with a wonderful friend. Like you I am still trying to come to terms with it all. I blamed myself but now I just feel angry that it was all so unfair. He looks a lovely dog in your pictures and your description of him is wonderful. He was lucky to have such a wonderful mum and I'm sure no one could have loved him anymore than you. Sarah
Oh Sarah, I see you are a new member and I do not know you but I do know how much pain you are suffering at the moment. Being 'robbed of a long life with a wonderful friend' just seems to sum things up - and yes, that is how I feel too. And he truly was a friend, who would have stood by me no matter what. I know that like me, Sarah, you will find tremendous support and compassion on this forum and I would urge you to take every opportunity to express your feelings. This will go a long way towards helping you to come to terms with things. Nothing will bring our wee friends back, but our friends on this forum understand only too well what we are going through. Please do not hesitate to PM me if you like. I will always be here for you.
Originally Posted by
lovezois
Hi Mags Thinking of you and sending you vibes to help you get through tomorrow. Try to celebrate his life and not his death. Know it is not easy when you have so many reminders so close at hand, but Oscar was such a happy boy and as I have told you previously there was such a special love and bond between you that he would not want you to be blaming yourself or to be sad.
Sincerely as ever Eunicexx
Eunice, thank you, but yes, the road outside is a constant reminder of a love lost. It means so much to me that you can say you noticed that special bond between us. Sometimes I think maybe it was just my imagination, but to hear it from someone else is a great consolation. Thankfully, with all the help I have received on this forum, I am beginning to realise that it was not my fault - it was an accident, albeit a cruel one. Thank you dear friend.
Originally Posted by
Mummy2Max
I often find myself sitting wondering how you are getting on lately Mags, I just wish there was more I could do to help you through this difficult time. Words just don't seem enough
just want to reach out and give you a big cuddle!
You did everything right by little Oscar, gave him the best life a dog could wish for, gave him all the love in the world and for that I know he is eternally grateful. There was nothing you could have done sweety, but he would have been happy right up to the very end. Saying that, please don't think of this as the end - just a pause in the story - and one day, the story will continue when you and Oscar are back together again, in each others arms where you belong.
((((((HUGS)))))) Hayley xxxxxx
thank you so much Hayley - my family and friends have all tried cuddling me and - it is just not the same. doggy cuddles are so so special. and Oscar's were the most special in the whole world! I am hoping that one day I will be able to imagine one of his cuddles, but for now it seems to be impossible!
Maybe after today things will start to get better. I had been so looking forward to his first birthday and planned a wee photoshoot so I could post them on here and send some to his breeders. Instead I have lit a candle and left it at his grave........
.........I like spending time there and quietly savouring the sounds and smells and feel of the air on my face like he did each morning. It helps.