4 weeks today since we lost our Lulu
Thanks again for all your support-cant tell you how much it has helped me
Woke up today feeling a bit more positive,the sunshine helped a bit ,too.( till I went out in the garden to a place where I had had to move lots of pots so Lulu could lie down in the shade!!!!)
Another good thing today was that our "dementia dog" Buster had a lie in-6 a.m,which was great,as much for him as for us.He had a really bad night a few nights ago and was up at 1 .30 a.m. This was followed by a very restless day.I didnt know what to do-whether we were being fair on him whether he had had enough etc
Thanks to anyone who has replied to my post about dementia-your advice and experience has been really helpful
But I feel so sad again now-its 4 weeks today that Lulu died -this was her last night with us and I find myself looking at the clock and thinking-this time 4 weeks ago we were....
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Ive had days where the loss of her wasnt in my head too much-and then I felt guilty as if I didnt care-I know thats stupid ,but I know I can say this here because many of you will have felt the same.
I know what Id reply to a post like this and God bless you all for all the replies youve given,.some of what youve told me of your experiences have really helped me .
I am trying to be positive and remember happy times with Lulu
I took Buster out for a long walk today.Alan often took him out and I would take Lulu-Ive only taken Buster out once since Lulu died and then I was crying in the rain and people were looking at me as if I was a bit of a nutter.
It made me sad too as it was where I walked Lulu and there was a field where she would always want to eat the long grass,which grew through the fence .I found myself stopping there,till I realised I had Buster with me ,not her.
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Buster really enjoyed the walk and settled down afterwards for a while.So I sat with him -(its like having a new baby and fitting in having a rest while they are asleep.)
I put on a film to watch and guess what -it featured a family where the mother has dementia-how unlucky am I?
Apologies to those of you who have P.M.d me -will reply to you ,I promise,
Ive posted about Buster and dementia on the Health Section-
Ill go now ,Buster just been here-he walks between my legs and the computer desk,around the back of chair,between my legs and the computer desk.......on the bed,off the bed etc.
But when he wags his tail when you come in-he`s like the same Buster we brought home with Lulu 14 yrs ago and I dont want to say good bye to him while weve still got hope
Thanks to you all again and my love to all of you who are going through really bad times with your pets and doing your very best for them,which is,I know all we can do
from Maureen
plus Buster(dog with dementia),Rigsby,14,Dougal ,14and little Ollie,only 6,our cats -they were up here today with me and asked me to make sure I sent you their love!!!!!
P.S Sorry for this being such a long post-I know youll all understand