Thanks for the hugs Malka. My ex just drags me to court for fun cos 1:its a 600 mile round trip for me & 2:cos I have to pay £160 in petrol PLUS solicitors fees & he gets legal aid so costs him nothing!

Thanks Vicki, I need 'em,its so so quiet in here this morning

Thanks SLB, made it harder to drop the kids off when my 12yr old was in tears as he didnt want me to leave them there..xx

Thankyou Mrs B, I need lots a hugs, this situation breaks my heart, but I couldn't go on living up there. I managed to stay out of trouble there & back (did the whole round trip in 1 day) My mum was crying when I left at 9:30pm as she was so worried about the state of the country atm, but I only stick to motorway.I saw lots of riot vans/ambulance/fire engines going at manic speeds on the way back, gave me goosebumps.Got back at 1:30am, had 2 hours sleep which probably aint helping my feeling so down this morning xx

Its heartbreaking isnt it, I really feel for you. My ex did nothing for any of the kids from the day they were born til the day I moved, he still does nothing now but has managed to paint such a fantastic picture of himself it breaks my heart.I worked 10 hr nightshifts, got home at 7am woke kids up , got em ready for school, nursery, preschool dropped em all of , started doing pik ups at 11am did their lunches, housework, collected ohers from school, did teas took them to park/bikerides/football etc bathed them, put them to bed & went back to work...I did that for nearly 4 years, I was like a zombie...& he did b**ger all.My sons are 14, 12, 8 & 7 x