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Location: Notts UK
Joined: Jan 2011
Posts: 1,137
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I've had more than my fair share of them - people react so differently. I hit rock bottom after the last one (we'd tried for a baby for well over 6 years before they started happening so I took it exceptionally hard) and I'll admit I didn't cope at all well.
It might sound daft but I couldn't even cope with going outside a heck of a lot of the time because babies in prams seemed to be everywhere reminding me what I'd lost. Lots fell on hubby to do in terms of weekly shops and the like and I needed him to understand if I suddenly took a complete detour to avoid being behind a baby in the queue at the checkouts at Tesco.
I still need him to understand if I suddenly need something upsetting on the TV turning over, whether he's in the middle of watching it or not - House a few weeks ago ended with the subject cropping up and I didn't know it was coming and ended up crying myself to sleep... I personally don't cope well with ultrasound pictures at all - because the last one we found our twins had died via ultrasound (that one was a silent/missed miscarriage - one of the more particularly cruel practical jokes in Mother Nature's repertoire).
I got, and still am, incredibly angry - those mummys who think they're entitled to the world just because they're mummies will send me into an apocalyptic rage - again, anger is one of the stages of grieving - and, while it might have seemed bad to others - being angry was often what was the only thing that gave me the kick to keep going and get out of bed on a morning.
I still need to talk about them now, to know that they were real - I don't think hubby quite gets that, but he plays along and tries to at least. It's quite hard to deal with for people because it's a very abstract, intangible grief (they don't see that you're grieving for the entire lost future -for the dreams of first steps, first days at school and everything as well as for what they can't see) and it really does stay with you - gets more bearable as time goes on, but you never forget them.
I crashed massively into depression and still haven't come out of it (NHS failed me collossally on that front)... some have a much easier time than I did though - like I say ours came on the back of years of fertility problems so were particularly cruel.
If she has to go for a scan to confirm everything's passed - it depends on the hospital how sensitively those are handled - some have separate days or areas for that type of scan, some delightfully shove you in with the ante-natal bump brigade. Just something to be prepared for as a possiblity - NHS miscarriage care can be bloody shocking at times (my pet soap box issue).