Jimmychoo2feathers Diary
When JC and I first met I don't mind telling you I did fall in love, but I also did wonder how he and I were ever going to get a relationship as he was so scared of humans.
My friend Marie broke my heart when she told me that he had been tethered for the near part of 2 years and when the owner wanted to catch him thet just reeled him in on a long tether
When Marie asked if I wanted him I said yes then spent 2 nights wondering what I had done.
Well we started our mission together ....him running and me following on foot talking calmly.
The first day he took a step near me, everyone was overjoyed, I didn't see what all the excitment was.....having my head up my bum....all I could think was ''2 weeks and all he's done is one step near me''
The first time he stayed still when I was in the stable with him....basically to me was a relief, as I had a few bruises where he had banged me, I thought....'thank god now he won't tread on me anymore''....everyone else was overjoyed
Chris, Marie's friend tried the carrot stick on him to descencize him, boy did he dance, when she handed it to me I thought ''here we go
'' he settled down and allowed me to do it....everyone else was overjoyed, when I was thinking....OK now I can get as close as a stick will allow''
They all talked about ''OH he's really bonded with you'' I walked away feeling down and a failure just because I couldn't understand why I couldn't touch him.
Then the day came he allowed me to groom him....I finally saw the trust and bonding in his eyes. No more kicking, no more trying to bite, no more running......I broke my heart again, only this time it was with happiness. I could finally put my arms around him
Then he went to his own field 8 days ago, and once more I broke my heart because he turned away and ran
and each time we went he stayed away
He looked lost and all his trust seemed to take a few steps backwards
Its been a horrid week for me as he has ran from me, following me at a distance but the trust we found for that short time seemed to go, I came home and tears trickled as I felt I had lost him again.
The yesterday Marie took Magic for a walk whilst I sat on a hump in the field.......it took a long time (or so it felt) I sang '''twinkle twinkle little star'' over and over as this was ''his'' song, I talked about the pheasant in the next field that he watched, I called him by his ''comfort name'' ''sweetpea'' he stood and listened but no magic moments
it went from light
to dark
and it felt like an age
and there is only so much you can tell a horse....well I went through all my childhood, to the present with him.....and he still stood and watched and listened, the wind blowing a gale and me freezing my socks off.
He lost some pony nuts in the grass, so I moved slowly and found some, then the game started....find the pony nuts
The icebreaker happened, he pinched my hat
and gave my forehead a lovely big lick, now he was close again, he smooth nostrils against my face with warm air near my ear.
This morning another game brought tears to our eyes as he was so close that he allowed my hand to stroke his face, his ears, his chin. Tonight again a Kiss full on the lips, a push a shoove a thank you Mom and before we left a kiss on the palm of the hand......my boy is settling and coming back.
We have a long road to go together, but I had to share this as it shows how and animals that has suffered wrong by some humans.....can begin to trust again
This journey is going to take a long time, but we are in it together, no matter how long it takes.
So with this diary I will keep those interested updated