Griff very sad its ended, he has done a very silly thing but in light of the pandemic the risk and you and your parents unforgivable in my opinion.

You do not need someone in your life who grovels to get there you need people in your life who deserve to be there.

Quite right Kazz, to be honest, I am better off on my own...I am just stuck in a very very unhappy life.
I am never to speak to him again and that's absolutely fine with me, just feel so sad that I wasted so much of my precious time on trying to make myself happy with someone who doesn't even like me