Feeling Like A Hypochondriac

Well its just over 4 weeks till I have my op to remove the tumour in my thyroid, well the whole right side of the thyroid actually, and it can't come round quickly enough for me.

I must have put on about 1 1/2 stone in weight over the last couple of weeks, I am enormous added to that, I have no energy, I fall asleep standing up and I have a memory like a sieve I'm not eating any more than before but I feel ravenous all the time, possibly my body isn't getting everything it needs at the moment due to my metabolism being all over the place.

I am in the unit today because I wanted to get some stuff on ebay and can't do it from home, but Clive has said he doesn't want me to come into work until I've had my op because I am just so run down. I am sleeping like a log but wake up feeling that I've had no sleep at all. The reason I feel ashamed at being so tired and wanting to lay around is that I'm in no pain, I feel I should be working just as hard as usual.

One of the worse things is that I have had to let the Scamps people down about judging for them next week. I feel awful about it and was so looking forward to it, but I would have hated to let them down on the day if I couldn't put one foot in front of another.

My doctor has signed me off work until 20th October, just up to the op and has told me that this is all normal and that the weight will drop off me after the opp and I will get my old vitality back. But it will be another few months after that until I can work again, maybe longer if it turns out to be malignant and I have to have the other one removed...I'm not thinking along those lines though. Oh I do hope the weight disappears, even Leon walks faster than me these days

On a brighter note, I may get to look in on you guys a lot more from home

Hi there!

Can completely understand what you are going through. In 1990 I had the right side of my Thyroid gland removed. I had been feeling pretty awful for two years. Doctors told me I was "stressed"! Eventually, one specialist found a lump in my neck. This was diagnosed to be a harmless cyst. Thank goodness. A diagnosis. Wrong! A year later when I had the said harmless lump removed it turned out to be a secondary cancerous tumour from my Thyroid. Dont Panic! Am sure yours will be harmless. Result of this revelation was I had a partial thyroidectomy. Not as bad as I thought and was out of hospital after two days. Have had no problems since. Can tell you that after the op I felt as though I had been kicked in the neck by a donkey! And had a fabulous scar complete with clips that looked like I had been in a street fight! But all faded now and have felt great ever since. I am a nurse and have looked after many patients before and after this op. You will be fine. I am the biggest wimp on the planet and I got through it unscathed. Hope I have not worried you as my case was very rare. If you ever need to talk just pm me and I will be here x

hugs hun, stop beating yourself up about it all hun, its not long untill the op now,, so just do what you need to untill the op,, be that sleep, or whatever,
Im sure when its all sorted out you will soon be wizzing round like a loony again x

What Shona said .
Seriously, don't feel bad, just concentrate on getting through this and getting better. The weght will drop off afterwards, I am sure.
HUGS.
xx

oh sweetie - of course you're not a hypochondriac *hugs*
The doctor told you they are your symptoms - just your brain doesn't want to give in to it!
I am sure you will be running around full of energy when its all done *hugs*

Give in to it and don't fight it, it is only four weeks

You will be back to your old self soon hun and feeling 100% better.

Hi Sheree I am with Shona and lucky Star on this one.
Pocitive vives and remember I still have that Fairy Wand if you need it. We are all here for you. Exx

Stop worrying about a few pounds, Sheree. It's hardly the end of the world, now is it?
Concentrate on the important stuff - get as much rest as you can pre-op - and get plenty more post-op.
You'll be back to your normal, vibrant, noisy, chatty, mental self in no time........

x0x

Thanks so much everyone, you've made me feel a lot better, I suppose I'm so used to charging around and getting lots done, it makes you feel a bit useless when you simply can't get through the day without nodding off several times

Clive has promised to take me clothes shopping to cheer me up, but I am determined not to get anything until I have lost the weight, thats incentive enough in itself, isn't it?

Thanks also artemis, they have told me that the needle biopsy showed up as containing pre-cancerous cells, so I know that I will be in the right hands when the time comes, I'm so pleased that you made a full recovery...I may just be pm'ing you now and again with questions...I hope thats ok.

Thanks again everyone xxx

Only just seen this - Sheree sometimes we have to slow down - listen to your body and let it happy.

Sorry you are feeling so down though - hope all goes well and you are feeling much better again very soon.

Take care of yourself honey

xx