Thank you everyone for your messages of condolences, pms, prayers and thoughts.

We've been finding it very tough, cried non-stop for the first few days, only yesterday was a little easier. I didn't want to speak to or see anyone, but I gave in yesterday and let my sister come up as she and my parents have been texting me everyday getting more and more worried.

It's been hard getting his last day out of my head, with hindsight, if only we could have saved him from that last fit and insisted the vet come out that day, or registered with another vet who might have been able to come out without 24hrs notice.

At least he didn't suffer like my Aunt did, who passed away last week - and had been in hospital on morphine in great pain for over a month - I actually didn't even cry when she died, I was sad but didn't cry. I just thought I had become hardened to it all after losing my brother so many years ago - but when Rocky went, that notion went out the window!! It hurts real bad.

I do feel a bit better today tho so please don't worry. I can actually think of the good times now and smile. All the lovely walks we went on, all the games he played with his friends all the little things that made his tail wag. He was loved very much and I think he knew that - we weren't the perfect owners, sometimes being a bit too over-protective or worrying needlessly but I think we did so with his best interest at heart.

I'm such a silly sausage, I got the nurse to clip some of his hair and put it in a tube for me - only to discover that hair clippings are no good for cloning not that we could have afforded mind you, at $150,000! He was just such a lovely sweet loving dog I would do anything to turn time and space on its head and get him back.

In the last few months I was becoming more sure and sure that I would never get another dog - it's too much heartache, but yesterday I looked at Presa breeders websites to see if they had any pups 'just like Rocky' - not for looks, but his personality and expressions - of course there weren't any. I guess you go through this when you long to get back what you've lost.

Anyway I'm blabbing on now, but it helps talking. Thank you all for listening and for being there. (Sorry I've not got round to replying to all your PMs but they've all been read and appreciated.)

xx

Thank you everyone for your messages of condolences, pms, prayers and thoughts.

We've been finding it very tough, cried non-stop for the first few days, only yesterday was a little easier. I didn't want to speak to or see anyone, but I gave in yesterday and let my sister come up as she and my parents have been texting me everyday getting more and more worried.

It's been hard getting his last day out of my head, with hindsight, if only we could have saved him from that last fit and insisted the vet come out that day, or registered with another vet who might have been able to come out without 24hrs notice.

At least he didn't suffer like my Aunt did, who passed away last week - and had been in hospital on morphine in great pain for over a month - I actually didn't even cry when she died, I was sad but didn't cry. I just thought I had become hardened to it all after losing my brother so many years ago - but when Rocky went, that notion went out the window!! It hurts real bad.

I do feel a bit better today tho so please don't worry. I can actually think of the good times now and smile. All the lovely walks we went on, all the games he played with his friends all the little things that made his tail wag. He was loved very much and I think he knew that - we weren't the perfect owners, sometimes being a bit too over-protective or worrying needlessly but I think we did so with his best interest at heart.

I'm such a silly sausage, I got the nurse to clip some of his hair and put it in a tube for me - only to discover that hair clippings are no good for cloning not that we could have afforded mind you, at $150,000! He was just such a lovely sweet loving dog I would do anything to turn time and space on its head and get him back.

In the last few months I was becoming more sure and sure that I would never get another dog - it's too much heartache, but yesterday I looked at Presa breeders websites to see if they had any pups 'just like Rocky' - not for looks, but his personality and expressions - of course there weren't any. I guess you go through this when you long to get back what you've lost.

Anyway I'm blabbing on now, but it helps talking. Thank you all for listening and for being there. (Sorry I've not got round to replying to all your PMs but they've all been read and appreciated.)

xx