Feeling a bit down about Georgie today
He's not ill, he's eating, wee'ing and poo'ing, but he drank nearly a whole big bowl of water last night which is very unlike him, but I know it was quite warm, and he tends to drink a bit like a camel, you hardly see him at the water bowl.
Anyway, I think he's getting to that stage where he's had enough if you know what I mean? When I look at those pictures I've taken of him lately, I see that very same look that I know only too well
The hot weather hasn't helped, he seems very tired, too tired, and today for the first time ever, he didn't want to come out with us on our 2nd walk, and quite honestly, I wasn't going to take him anyway, but usually when I tell him he's staying here, he kicks up a fuss, but today, he was quite happy to lie down again
His tail is disappearing, all the hair is going, it's thin, and at the end it's very pink, not sore, but pink, and half way up there is a big lump
Somebody told me this morning that they have a gland there, half way up there tail, does anyone know what this is then please? I was umming and arring about taking him to the vet, but then they'll probably say, he's got to have his tail off or something, and there's no way we'll be putting him through that trauma at his ripe old age with the life he's had with his skin problems, and having lived on steroids and ab's.
I know two years ago, when the vet reluctantly had to put him back on steroids because of his quality of life, he did say at that time that we'll be killing him off slowly now, we can never cure him, we can only maintain him, so I suppose, all in all, he's had a much better innings since that day than what we expected.
I'm going to rest him up a bit now, he won't ever be coming out on our 2nd walk with us (although of late, I've tended to just go up the green for this walk and let him just mooch about whilst Zena plays with her ball). I notice on our early morning walk, that although he keeps up, he's finding it hard going, and we do stop a lot to give him a rest.
I couldn't possibly make the decision now, that's totally out of the question, he's happy enough as he is, BUT, I've just got that awful gut instinct lurking, especially when I take his head in my hands and look into his eyes
He's been very restless at night too Dave has told me (he does the night shift!). One minute he wants to be outside, then he wants to come in, then he can't settle, but he said he doesn't seem to be in pain, and he certainly isn't in pain from where I'm standing, otherwise he really would be whisked off to the vet.
I dunno, it's just a sad day for me here
I think Zena has sussed something too, coz she's keeping out of his way a bit, she isn't instigating any play, she's just letting him be peaceful and that's not like her with Georgie
When I give him cuddles, he's licking my hand, instead of doing his normal grunts and moans that he does, maybe he's asking me? OH God this is not good, you always think they'll go on forever don't you until you see a dramatic change like this
Hey ho. A very strict eye will be kept on him, he's on a small steroid daily dose anyway, so he can't have anything else, and steroids will supress a certain amount of pain IF he is in any. I honestly think he's getting like my old mum did near the end, whenever I asked her where she hurt she would reply "oh, everywhere" and it could well be like that when everything is giving up hey?
Thanks for listening, I needed to get that down, now I'm going to give him a big cuddle whilst Zena is sleeping